THE DAY I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR!

Today is THEE day. I can’t tell you how many hours I have spent imagining what this day would look like. How I would feel today? Where in life I would be? Would I be happy? Nervous? Anxious? Would I be capable? Would I be “ready”? Would I feel 100% confident in knowing that “it is the right time” to make this leap?

Let me first start by saying this…I AM TERRIFIED. Literally terrified. I am anxious. I am NOT 100% ready. I don’t know if this is the right time. What I do know, is I am happy. I am capable. I am passionate. I am ready to be the badass lady boss that I KNOW I can be. So the secret is out…

TODAY IS THE DAY THAT PAIGE ARMINTA WATTS BECOMES HER OWN BOSS! You heard me right…I AM TAKING THE LEAP BABY!

If you saw my recent Instagram Stories, making changes is somewhat easy for me. Once I feel a change needs to be made, I cannot stop thinking about it and I will do everything in my power to make that change. PAUSE…that doesn’t mean that my “inner self” is cool, calm, and collective. I would describe my “inner self” as an anxious hott mess that is riding this rollercoaster of emotions, all while trying to dodge my own and others negative words and thoughts. I don’t know where this crazy decision will take me. I don’t know if I will be successful. I don’t know ANYTHING. All I know is that I was not at my happiest and I made this decision because, at this time in my life, I am ready to put all my efforts into my OWN brand.

I have done a lot of thinking this past month about who I am. I have thought a lot about this new journey I am about to embark on. I have thought about the brand I have built up until this point. I never thought I would say this, but I am SO proud of it. I mean…look at my very first photo I posted!

I love how far I have come! Now…I may not be like most who have the ability to open up and share their insights, stories, etc. As much as this seems like “common sense”, I STRUGGLE. BAD. These past few months I have felt emotionally and mentally drained. I have felt betrayed. I have felt confused, sad, and defeated. But at the same time, I have felt grateful, loved, empowered, and blessed. The social media world is hard to share all of yourself. It is hard for me to share things with thousands of people who have the ability to throw any comment my way, who can jump to conclusions, etc. It’s a scary thing! I’ve done a lot of talking with some of my close friends about being vulnerable and if I am not “vulnerable enough” for this space. For me, it has been SO hard to navigate this and feel like I am giving you all a reason to follow me and support me. I am not an open book. I am not great with my words (ask all my exes hahaha). I am not great at writing. My vulnerability comes through making fun of myself and making a joke of things. It has been over a year since I have published a post on here, but I am vowing…RIGHT NOW…to make this space (my blog) a place where I will be more open. Because I have gone through a lot, I do have a lot to say, I want to connect with you guys on a different level.

THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF SOMETHING NEW AND I AM 100% READY TO TAKE Y’ALL ON THIS RIDE WITH ME!! Ahhhhh!

I can’t believe that this is my new reality…YOU GUYS THINK YOU’VE SEEN THE DEFINITION OF A “HOTT MESS”?! Just you wait…hahaha

Let the journey of Paige Arminta begin…

xo,
p